Me and Tamil share a rather funny relationship. She sometimes gets angry with me for not staying in our motherland, i.e. Chennai. As a punishment, she does not reveal to me the meanings of certain words when I try to understand songs and dialogues that sound very beautiful.
I recently asked Tamil, “Why do you do this to me? Why don’t you reveal yourself to me completely?”. The reply that the language gave me touched my heart. She said, “You could not do without me, but you never truly loved me. Did you ever voluntarily try to understand and learn me? Do that and I will reveal myself fully to you.”
This set me thinking. Was that true? Partly, yes. I love the language, of course. She is my mother tongue. But like all loved ones generally are, she was kind of neglected by me. Understanding her was, sadly, not on the top of my priority list. If I had made her feel so, it was my fault. I apologised.
Tamil was happy that I had at last recognised what I was doing wrong. She said she would help me in understanding herself as long as I made voluntary attempts. I agreed. She said, “See, a learning process does not have to be boring and dull. I have evolved much over time and much has been added to me. You yourself find out a way in which you can attain me, at the same time not losing motivation. Do it in a way that entertains you, so that you keep doing it.”
I racked my brains for some time and came up with an idea. I would start watching Tamil movies and listening to Tamil songs. I had tried in the past, but had given up when I didn’t understand completely. Now I won’t. I will find out the meanings. Thus I began my expedition.
I started by watching the much hyped Sivaji – the boss. I will not comment on the movie here. 🙂
As a second lesson, I moved on to some Tamil songs that I have always loved, but have not been able to understand each and every word. I tried to listen to them once again with a new perspective and also googled for them.
Here are the songs:
Google helped me find this site meant for people like me. It was very helpful.
I reported my progress to Tamil and she was ecstatic. “I will keep revealing more of myself the harder you try. Most importantly, try understanding me because you want to, not because someone told you to,” she said. I understood the profound meaning in the words.
As I thanked her profusely for not shying away from me for ever, Tamil winked at me. She said, “I knew you always wanted to embrace me, but you were just not aware. It was I who made you see that video on Priya’s blog.”
My mouth hung open. I remembered this video I had seen some time ago:
Now I can only accept the miracle that had happened. I am planning to go ahead with my expedition. Wish me luck!! 🙂